Dear Abby: Forgiveness feels impossible after a history of abuse

Dear Abby: My earliest memories are of my father molesting me when I was 4, 5, and 6. My mother knew. I had appendicitis when I was 4, and she ignored my symptoms for days. My appendix burst when they tried to remove it. My father took me for “drives” during which he molested me. He would threaten me with death, so the abuse continued.